What the Future Holds..

So, this past Tuesday I went to the local Community college down here to get registered for classes... And I ended up walking out in the middle of it. Bad decision? Probably. Do I regret it? Maybe a little.

There hasn't been one moment in all the time I've lived in this town that I actually wanted to go to CCCC (Coastal Carolina Community College.) There's this saying that pretty much every teenager around here knows. Basically if you go to CCCC, then you'll never get out of this town. Which is true, pretty much. I don't know one person that's gone there, even with plans of transferring to a 4 year university, that has ever left. 2 year degrees turn into 2 year degrees that take 3 or 4 or 5 years to get. 65 easy credits, that turn into 65 credits spread out over the course of YEARS because of failings, not showing up, and droppings of a class or two.

I don't know what it is about this town that holds us here like a vise. But I've never wanted that. I've had too many friends that want so badly to leave here, but never do. It seems as though they just gave up or they got themselves pregnant/knocked someone up (Which happens A LOT around here.) Either way, it's something that I refuse to let happen to me. When I went out with my friend on the 3rd I told her that I was scared that I'd end up like most everyone esle: taking classes for the next someoddyears and working at various places of minimum wage employment. Never moving forward or backwards. In a stalemate of some sorts. She told me not to worry, that I was too ambitious, hell, even too scared to let that happen to myself. She's right, I know this, but doubt still plagues me.

My dad told me it was my decision. What I wanted to do, but he's the one that caused me to not apply to any universities. I don't regret that though. I could have gone to a university this fall, and then I would've been paying off a student loan. The curse of graduating a year early. When I hit 18 years old I get around 20 grand for 4 year from my mother's death. The money is to be spent however and whenever I want, preferably for college though. But since I did, in fact, graduate from High School a year early I haven't gotten that money yet. So the first semester of college I would have been broke. And indebt.

My dream is to run a teen home, or just work with troubled teens in some way. Throughout high school and even middle school I was the one my friends would always go to when they needed to talk to someone, when they were looking for advice, or just needed someone who wouldn't judge them. I'm not the nicest person in the world, some people may tell you otherwise, but trust me, I'm no saint. But for some odd reason my friends trusted me. I think 2 years ago it hit me that I wanted to help other teens. not just my friends, but other people who don't have someone to talk to about their problems. All my friends said they could easily see me in this role. I don't know if I'll have the strength to handle it, but I definitely have the heart. I've never doubted that. I might come off mean sometimes, but usually I'm just pointing out how obviously stupid someone is. That what they did, they know they shouldn't have done. Tough love, i guess is what people would call it. Call it some 6th sense or whatever, but I know when someone can handle tough love, and I know when someone is on a breaking point. And for that one simple reason my friends have supported me with my dream.

Anyway, I've applied to Liberty University for the Sping semester, by that time I'll have my roughly 20 grand to help pay my way. I just... I need prayers and good vibes or whatever you want to send my way. I have doubts, mostly in myself. I never think I'll make it to where I want to be, which is stupid, I know. But it's my nature. I'm not sure what I'll do if I don't get in. Wallow in self pity for a while then succumb to my fate of years and years at a 2 year college. Or be resilient and try again. God, I hope I'll try again.

Nervously Excited!

It's 1am in the morning and I'm watching Rome (the HBO series, really do love this show.) In about 11 hours I will be at Ellis airport picking up Mary and Sam. I'm extremely excited, but I'm still so nervous. It's different when you're so used to texting someone, and then the next thing you know they're right there! right in front of you. Everyone keeps saying that we'll have so much fun, and it's not that I don't think we will, I'm just worried that it'll be too weird for me actually having them here.

I'm very much an introvert. I don't think I'd call myself "antisocial" because I go out with friends all the time, it's just that when I'm with said friends I'm usually the quiet *coughSANEcough* one of the group. I'm just not a talker!! I listen. And I'm jsut nervous that that will affect our visit.

Eclipse! (I'm so sorry Ash! I hope you see it soon)

We got to the movies today at like 11:50am (our showing was for 1pm.) We just decided to leave shortly after we got up this morning. It was pretty empty when we got there, just a few people, so my friend, Krystyn, and I got really good seats (right at the top and in the middle of the row exactly.) For the hour and ten minutes before the movie started we were just talking and I had my Ipod playing the Eclipse Soundtrack for the few rows in front of us to listen to. Also there was a group of guys like 2 rows in front of us that were talking about my Harry Potter t-shirt (yes, I wore an HP t-shirt to watch Eclipse) loudly, so I started playing the Harry Potter soundtrack for them. LOL.

Anyway, the movie was FANTASTIC!!!! I agree with everyone that says it was the best one so far, because it truely was. Rob and Kstew (the two I'm always the most worried about) were SOOO much better together in this one. It was way less awkward between them than in Twilight and New Moon. I was so happy about that.

The New Borns. Awesome! If you've read Bree's book, then you know that they did really well with the New Borns. I hated that they switched out Rachelle for Bryce in playing Victoria, mainly because I am SO against character changes. It bugs the crap out of me. Though I will admit that Bryce did okay... Xavier was excellent as Riley! And I loved seeing Bree. One part with the New Borns that bothered me was at the very end where Bree was standing behind all the Cullens. Uh.... no. they wouldn't have had her standing behind them with Bella right there.

Jacob... I loved him when he was shirtless. it was easy to forget how annoying he was. but.. Grrrr! I came soooo close to screaming "It's all Renesmee's fault!" everytime Jacob kept up his "you love me. I love you. So forget about the vamp and be with me" thing that he always tries and pulls.

I enjoy all the other Werewolves. Despite that they're suppose to be like TEN times bigger than they are in human form, I get that it's hard to find BIG men who can pass off as being teens still. So I live with the people that they choose to play the Weres.

When Bella was in Florida and the Cullens and Weres were tracking Victoria THAT WAS EPIC!!!! I really enjoyed that part. and when Jasper was training everyone for the battle, loved that too! Especially when him and Alice were going at it! That was plain adorable! New Born battle was epic too. I was slightly disappointed with Edward/Victoria and Seth/Riley fights. I mean they were really good, but I just always imagined... more, I guess.

The flashbacks were spot on for me! I loved Jasper's and Rosalie's so much. I wish that Jasper's was longer though. I know that they had to cut it down, but I feel like if you didn't read the books then you wouldn't have been able to really understand and love Jasper like we all do.

Charlie and the sex talk. SO FUNNY! I was laughing sooo hard during that part.

I also loved the proposal scene. They did a really good job of putting that in the movie, i think.

I'm trying to think of what else happened, but I'm drawing a blank. I want to see it again though! Soon!

Anywho, I love you all! and I hope you enjoyed this Kym!

Ash made me..

I was supposed to make this last night, but I got caught up doing other things. I've been incredibly lazy since graduation and that includes being too lazy to set up this blog thing, but Ash texted me last night and demanded I start one. So this is me starting one! I know, not that exciting.

I actually have a pretty boring life, especially now that I think about it, so this blog will probably be equally as boring. But I guess it's easier to tell everyone at once what's been happening in my life instead of having to text/fb is over and over again.

Anywho, I love you all!